Hello world, this is me and my blog.

A couple of weeks ago I decided to start a blog. Not a blog about myself, but one about the world, of how I see politics, values and related conflicts. I decided to start this blog to give an outlet to all my ideas, observations, my anger and desperations about mankind's stupidity and hubris, but also to express the joy of seeing people fighting for what they believe in, to be part of that segment of the population that believes their voices can help shape the world. Maybe they are right, maybe they are wrong, but nothing is worse than not trying for the fear of failing, than sticking to one's status quo assumptions only because they appear to be unalterable, because alternatives seem politically unacceptable or idealistic. Why being so negative? We should all be a little bit more visionary.

So this is what pushed me into starting my own blog. I have been told the first entry is the most difficult one. And based on my experience it is true. To circumvent the problem, I decided to write the second blog entry first. Knowing that there would be another "first" entry actually did make it easier to write the "second" entry. Even though I am still not satisfied with that one, I could now easily go on and write the third and fourth etc. entry.

But the problem I wanted to circumvent resurfaced when actually writing the true "first" entry. Do I introduce myself? Do I explain what topics my blog will tackle? What tone do I want to set, what explanations do I want to give? But the truth is I can't give you the answers to this: As to introducing myself, I know who I am but the only way for you to find out will be to read my blog. Any direct answers or introductions would be meaningless, just as with cover letters: of course everyone is "reliable", "a good team player", "very analytical", "honest:" and whatnot. It is only time that will tell how accurate these affirmations really are. The same goes with anything I could say right here right now when describing who I am.

As to what my blog will be like or what it will be about, I don't have the answers to these questions. I know that I have reasons to keep my blog anonymous at least for now, and I will always try to be consistent in my opinions for I hate inconsistencies. Therefore I hope that anyone who detects an inconsistency will point it out to me so that I can reconsider and refine what I said. But for all the other questions I don't know yet if I want my blog to be written as impersonally or as personally as possible. I don't know yet how much exactly I will write about what topic, or how regularly. I want my blog to evolve naturally, to "find its own way". I am sure my blog posts today will look completely different from the ones I will post in a year. My writing style will certainly shift and become more consolidated, but these are all reasons why I can't give you a "preview" yet on my blog.

I know I have a problem with sticking to the essential and keeping things short. I stray from the point quite easily, since I am pretty opinionated and biased in that I usually have something to say on everything, while I don't want to generate the impression of having just an opinion that is not well-founded. Hence, my straying from the point. I am open to having my opinions questioned, but I want them to be questioned for the right reasons, and not because someone misunderstands what I am saying. Right or wrong, they usually are the result of some informed choice and derive from the assumptions I have about the world. 

This was the problem with my "second" entry: the problem is just too big to be tackled within one post. There are so many counter-arguments that I would have wanted to counter preemptively, and I recognize that my "second" blog entry seems like an open invitation to misunderstandings. But to prevent them would have required ten more entries at least, whereas I was trying to stick to the point. I will probably incur in these types of problems quite often, at least at the beginning, and it will probably make regular, present and future blogging difficult for me until I will finally find the right balance.

And here we go, my first inconsistency is already detected: I said I didn't want to write about me or my blog, and here I go writing about the two. Maybe this is a sign that I should just get into blogging without any explanations and whatnot. In the end this is what pushed me into it at the beginning. But what can I say, we humans are all living contradictions, and therefore, inevitably, so am I.